Message-ID: <10951594.1075844966560.JavaMail.evans@thyme> Date: Fri, 4 May 2001 00:59:00 -0700 (PDT) From: stanley.horton@enron.com To: caron.horton@trinity.edu Subject: Fw: Thought you would enjoy this. Love Clara Mime-Version: 1.0 Content-Type: text/plain; charset=us-ascii Content-Transfer-Encoding: 7bit X-From: Stanley Horton X-To: Caron.Horton@Trinity.edu X-cc: X-bcc: X-Folder: \Stanley_Horton_2\Notes Folders\Discussion threads X-Origin: HORTON-S X-FileName: shorton.nsf ---------------------- Forwarded by Stanley Horton/Corp/Enron on 05/04/2001 07:47 AM --------------------------- "Ted or Clara Allen" on 05/04/2001 05:49:00 AM To: "Tony & Tammi Worsnop" , "Theo Gornell" , "Stan Horton" , "Sherry Hamilton" , "Scott & Sandra Dillon" , "Ron Devasto" , "NICK GORNELL" , "Mike Ryan" , "Maria Palmer" , "Harry and Lois" , "Gary D Small" , "Debbie Panholzer" , "Debbie Coover" , "Cliff Collins" , "Chris Robison" , "Betty Binford" , "Ann & Tom" cc: Subject: Fw: Thought you would enjoy this. Love Clara ----- Original Message ----- From: "maggie welsh" To: Sent: Thursday, May 03, 2001 8:25 PM > > > A time comes in your life when you finally get it... > > When in the midst of all your fears and insanity > > you stop dead in your tracks and somewhere the voice > > inside your head cries out - ENOUGH! Enough fighting > > and crying or struggling to hold on. And, like a > > child quieting down after a blind tantrum, your sobs > > begin to subside, you shudder once or twice, you blink > > back your tears and through a mantle of wet lashes you > > begin to look at the world through new eyes. This is > > your awakening. You realize that it's time to stop > > hoping and waiting for something to change, or for > > happiness, safety and security to come galloping over > > the next horizon. You come to terms with the fact that > > he is not Prince Charming and you are not Cinderella > > and that in the real world there aren't always > > fairy tale endings (or beginnings for that matter) and > > that any guarantee of "happily ever after" must begin > > with you, and in the process... a sense of > > serenity is born of acceptance. You awaken to the fact > > that you are not perfect, and that not everyone will > > always love, appreciate or approve of who or what you > > are... and that's OK.(They are entitled to their own > > views and opinions.) > > And you learn the importance of loving and championing > > yourself, and in the process... a sense of newly found > > confidence is born of self-approval. You stop bitching > > and blaming other people for the things > > they did to you (or didn't do for you) and you learn > > that the only thing you can really count on is > > the unexpected. You learn that people don't always > > say what they mean or mean what they say, and that not > > everyone will always be there for you, and that it's > > not always about you. So, you learn to stand on your > > own and to take care of yourself and in the process... > > a sense of safety & security is born of self-reliance. > > You stop judging and pointing fingers, and you begin > > to accept people as they are, and to overlook their > > shortcomings and human frailties and, in the > > process... a sense of peace & contentment is born of > > forgiveness. > > > > You realize that much of the way you view yourself, > > and the world around you, is a result of all the > > messages and opinions that have been ingrained into > > your psyche. And you begin to sift through all the > > crap you've been fed about how you should behave, how > > you should look, how much you shouldn't weigh, what > > you should wear, where you should shop, what you > > should drive, how and where you should live, what > > you should do for a living, who you should sleep with, > > who you should marry, what you should expect of > > a marriage, the importance of having and raising > > children, or what you owe your parents. You learn to > > open up to new worlds and different points of view. And > > you begin reassessing and redefining who you are and > > what you really stand for. > > You learn the difference between wanting and needing, > > and you begin to discard the doctrines and values > > you've outgrown, or should never have bought into to > > begin with, and in the process... you learn to respect > > your instincts. > > You learn that it is truly in giving that we receive. > > And that there is power and glory in creating > > and contributing, and you stop maneuvering > > through life merely as a "consumer" looking for your > > next fix. You learn that principles such as honesty > > and integrity are not the outdated ideals of > > a bygone era, but the mortar that holds together the > > foundation upon which you must build a life. You learn > > that you don't know everything, it's not > > your job to save the world, and that you can't teach a > > pig to sing. You learn to distinguish between guilt > > and responsibility, and the importance of setting > > boundaries and learning to say NO. > > You learn that the only cross to bear is the one > > you choose to carry, and that martyrs get > > burned at the stake. > > Then you learn about love; romantic love and familial > > love. > > You learn that you will not be more beautiful, > > more intelligent, more lovable, or important because > > of the man or woman on your arm or the child that > > bears your name. You learn to look at relationships as > > they really are and not as you would have them be. You > > stop trying to control people, situations, > > and outcomes. You learn that just as people grow and > > change, so it is with love.... and you learn that love is a verb, it is > > action. > > > > And you look in the mirror and come to terms with the > > fact that you will never be a size 5 or a perfect 10 > > and you stop trying to compete with the image inside > > your head and agonizing over how you "stack up." > > You come to the realization that you deserve to be > > treated with love, kindness, sensitivity, and > > respect, and you will not settle for less. And you > > allow only the hands of a lover who cherishes you, to > > glorify you with his or her touch... and in the > > process you internalize the meaning of self-respect. > > And you learn that your body really is your temple. > > > > You begin eating a balanced diet, drinking more > > water, and taking more time to exercise. You learn > > that fatigue diminishes the spirit and can create > > doubt and fear, so you take more time to rest. And, > > just as food fuels the body, laughter fuels the soul, > > so you take more time to laugh and to play. You learn > > that, for the most part, in life you get what you > > believe you deserve... and that much of life > > truly is a self-fulfilling prophecy. You learn that > > anything worth achieving is worth working for, and > > that wishing for something to happen is different > > from working toward making it happen. More > > importantly, you learn that in order to achieve > > success, you need direction, discipline, and > > perseverance. You also learn that no one can do > > it all alone and that it's OK to risk asking for > > help. You learn that the only thing you must truly fear > > is the great robber baron of all time. FEAR > > itself. You learn to step right into and through your > > fears, because you know that whatever happens you can > > handle it, and to give in to fear is to > > give away the right to live life on your terms. > > And you learn to fight for your life and not to > > squander it living under a cloud of impending doom. > > You learn that life isn't always fair, you don't > > always get what you think you deserve, and that > > sometimes bad things happen to unsuspecting, good > > people. On these occasions you learn not to > > personalize things. You learn that God isn't punishing > > you or failing to answer your prayers. It's just life > > happening. And you learn to deal with evil in its most > > primal state - the ego. > > You learn that feelings such as anger, envy, and > > resentment must be understood and redirected, or they > > will suffocate the life out of you and poison the > > universe that surrounds you. You learn to admit when > > you are wrong and to build bridges instead of > > walls. You learn to be thankful and to take comfort in > > many of the simple things we take for granted, things > > that millions of people upon the earth can only dream > > about; a full refrigerator, clean running water, a > > soft warm bed, a long hot shower. > > Slowly, you begin to take responsibility for > > yourself... by yourself, and you try to make yourself > > a promise --to never betray yourself . And > > you hang a wind chime outside your window so you can > > listen to the wind. And you make it a point > > to keep smiling, to keep trusting, and to stay open to > > every wonderful possibility. Finally, with courage in > > your heart and with God by your side, > > you take a stand, you take a deep breath, and you > > begin to design the life you want to live as best as > > you can. > > > > Fly, fly do not fear > > Don't waste a breath, don't shed a tear > > Your heart is pure, your soul is free > > Be on your way, don't wait for me > > Above the universe you'll climb > > On beyond the hands of time > > The moon will rise, the sun will set > > But I won't forget > >