Message-ID: <31391880.1075861730023.JavaMail.evans@thyme> Date: Sun, 25 Nov 2001 22:35:25 -0800 (PST) From: recordp@southwestern.edu To: kay.mann@enron.com Subject: RE: Sunday Mime-Version: 1.0 Content-Type: text/plain; charset=us-ascii Content-Transfer-Encoding: quoted-printable X-From: Paige Record X-To: Mann, Kay X-cc: X-bcc: X-Folder: \KMANN (Non-Privileged)\Mann, Kay\Deleted Items X-Origin: Mann-K X-FileName: KMANN (Non-Privileged).pst Mom, I'm sorry that today was particularly hard for you. It wasn't too sad for m= e until I got your email. I had tried really hard to convince myself not to= think about the fact that it's been a month because today is really just l= ike yesterday. But I got your email while talking to Mikey and started talk= ing about it all. I realized just now that I have my old standby of school = to stress out about but that you can't really take comfort in your work lik= e you normally would. That must make it extra hard on you. I got to let it = all out on Wednesday when I got to the Pink House and none of y'all were th= ere--I had a good forty minutes to myself, and I went out on the dock and j= ust cried (until the rain came). It is honestly so hard for me to believe t= hat he's gone. I still feel like I'm in denial sometimes. I have recognized= that I feel extremely lonely right now because it seems like the whole wor= ld has moved on and I'm caught in one place. As much as it hurts me to hear= that you're having a particularly sad day, it feels good to know that some= one is right there with me. I take comfort in that, if nothing else. For me= , the biggest struggle has honestly been how upbeat and lively PopPop was t= he day before he died. I almost wish I could have seen it in his face or so= mething because I feel that maybe I would have been better prepared. But on= the other hand, I'm so grateful to have had PopPop in good form as my last= memories. Sigh. This is such a process, and I feel like it's just beginnin= g. But I know we are going to get through it, and I can tell we're going to= be an even stronger family because of it. I guess I'd better get back to m= y thus far unsuccessful paper writing. My mind is evidently elsewhere becau= se I've gotten nothing done today. Oh well I'm sure I'll get it all done an= d do just fine. (Thanks to your "what's the worst that could happen?" speec= h) Take care, and I'll see you Thursday. Love, Paige P.S. Call me if you want to talk...I'm always happy to hear from home.